Our Voice

I abhor them,  these delicate hands.  A painful reminder of just how good for nothing I am.  Used to being a princess,  now I'm just someone homeless.  I wander in fruitless searches, wondering in a trance,  I stay still as always.  How long has it been?  I still can't find the right way.  Oh how useless I'm am!  What right do I have to keep on breathing?  I feel sorry,perhaps I was born aimless.  With no loss and no success,  I'm just a pile of waste.  Where's my conscience? maybe devoured by a devil,  torn into bits and pieces. A heavy heart filled with guilt,  yet it brings no change ,  for I still brew new regrets this very constant phase.  A coward like me,  only wishing for peace,  where's the pre requisite spirit of war?  No wonder I always just retreat.  I wish to tear myself apart.  Perhaps then only will I be reborn as a warrior queen.  Perhaps then,atleast,I...

This envy i never knew of,  of wanting to hold your hand,  to take you with me  and to protect you from every feind.  This feeling of regret for I didn't cherish you enough.  You've always given me so much yet I gave you nothing in return.  This feeling of terror because I have a heart full of fear.  What if you let go?  What if you aren't here anymore?  It hurts like hell.  This thought,  a nightmare in itself.  Oh mom,  please be healthy please come back to us well. 

The people who shared my childhood,  I miss all of you.  We've all grown up ,  our new paths shining through.  Even though shrouded by darkness,  we continue to move forward.  Letting go of the hands we used to hold,  reaching towards the new,  leaving the old ones.  Having a resolve tougher than a mountain that I can let go of you, find the future I've always wished to know.  It seems it's harder than I thought.  Each lesson a bitter truth but at the end of the day,did it even matter?  I don't know if I will like it,  this inconstant life would be so monotonous without you here.  The past however still binds me,  Just a few dialogues from a novel  Yet enough to remind me  that I'd miss y'all so much My heart already feels heavy.  No matter what happened between us,  thank you,  for you've given me memories so damn unforgettable .  A part of me holds a part of you,  In those dam...

Times when I had it easy, I used to smile genuinely. My heart that throbbed cheerfully, Oh! Those beautiful days gone by, now is a new life. I'm not sad, look,it's been months, I haven't even cried. But where did it go? Happiness that felt natural, Happiness that felt mine. I have to strive just for that single smile. In my life's circle, how did I end up on a tangent? Oh I really really wanna run away, to a place so far from here. The past or future, whatever becomes my destination. I t doesn't matter anyway. This present is too harsh on me. I wonder if the Gods know? They've pushed me to my limits. The heart that throbbed once, now it just bleeds. And so, drop by drop,it dries up; slow crushing pain building inside of me. Cursed as i am, I still heave a breathe. With every scar that I bled, is a new monster I bred. Oh this heart no longer belongs to me, Somebody take it away. I no longer have a soul, I just want to wish myself p...