I no longer feel

Times when I had it easy,
I used to smile genuinely.
My heart that throbbed cheerfully,
Oh! Those beautiful days gone by,
now is a new life.
I'm not sad, look,it's been months,
I haven't even cried.
But where did it go?
Happiness that felt natural,
Happiness that felt mine.
I have to strive just for that single smile.
In my life's circle,
how did I end up on a tangent?
Oh I really really wanna run away,
to a place so far from here.
The past or future,
whatever becomes my destination.
It doesn't matter anyway.
This present is too harsh on me.
I wonder if the Gods know?
They've pushed me to my limits.
The heart that throbbed once,
now it just bleeds. And so,
drop by drop,it dries up;
slow crushing pain building inside of me.
Cursed as i am, I still heave a breathe.
With every scar that I bled,
is a new monster I bred.
Oh this heart no longer belongs to me,
Somebody take it away.
I no longer have a soul,
I just want to wish myself peace.