Promised

Felt homesick while at home. 
She's nothing but a broken body
plus half a soul. 
I've been to hell even before she could;
killed myself in my heart everytime my head would kill her off.

 
Now, phobic to you I am, oh death. 
Smiling and laughing, 
hiding a heart full of eternal melancholy. 
Stigma of doing too much or doing nothing, 
I'm really the worst, none can compete. 

I'd grow thorns in my heart
each time roses bloomed in her eyes. 
It bleeds and it pains, 
I'm still so useless. 
I could never suffice. 

2:50 at night
I stare at your picture until I cry.
Now my face's wet, eyes dry. 
A world without you, 
a nightmare through and through. 
Where would I go with no one for me to hold?

There's no home at all,sweetheart,

if it's you who's no more.

Oh my chosen rational number on this number line filled with irrationals, 

you're my final destination. 

So please don't move on without me, 
let's be together, 
whether its hell, earth or the heavens.
'cause home is anywhere as long as I'm with thee.
I will never let you go,even if it's Yama facing me. 

Gifting you the forever I had once promised.
Gifting you the forever I had once promised.