My foremost
This envy i never knew of, of wanting to hold your hand, to take you with me and to protect you from every feind. This feeling of regret for I didn't cherish you enough. You've always given me so much yet I gave you nothing in return. This feeling of terror because I have a heart full of fear. What if you let go? What if you aren't here anymore? It hurts like hell. This thought, a nightmare in itself. Oh mom, please be healthy please come back to us well.