My foremost


This envy i never knew of, 
of wanting to hold your hand, 
to take you with me 
and to protect you from every feind. 
This feeling of regret
for I didn't cherish you enough. 
You've always given me so much
yet I gave you nothing in return. 
This feeling of terror
because I have a heart full of fear. 
What if you let go? 
What if you aren't here anymore? 
It hurts like hell. 
This thought, 
a nightmare in itself. 
Oh mom, 
please be healthy
please come back to us well. 

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